A lonely Valentine, yr 2009

Its a Thursday, not an ordinary Thursday. I'm without my love since 15th Jan. The feeling of loneliness strikes everynow & then. It'll just come and get me at whichever time possible. During work, if I'm occupied, I'll be safe, however if I'm free, all the mixed emotions shall come flooding into my brain. Thus making me very very sad.
I've seen alot of movies where couple broke up peacefully, yet manage to be friends. Why can't I do it? Seriously, I never had a good ending to my relationship (if I have, I would not be typing this anymore.....duh). Probably its my own attitude problem. The ego side of me that I wished not to be lowered.
I recalled the story on how we started. I would say Thank You to our company's annual dinner in 2006 where we sparked. The ignition then grew rapidly into huge flame where both her & I became very steady. She managed to control my tantrum, & I managed to kiss her nightmare goodbye. We managed to see rainbows everyday in us. I've never been so calm in her hug. The nice & cuddly hug. In return, she always managed to make worried of her when she did not pick up my calls. Guess what was she doing? SLEEPING......Anyway, we love each other passionately. Alot of struggles & determination were put into place for us to maintain our sincere relationship. When I mean alot, it is really alot.
Time passes by, people grow, people die. Fortunately both me & her are still alive. But we've departed. I fully understand that a girl's heart is fragile & I'm not supposed to break it. Guess I've broken many hearts before I come to find my true love whom eventually thinks that we're not that suitable. I have nothing else to say but SORRY that I've wasted plentiful of your time being with me. The past 2 years plus was a great journey of life I've been through. Definitely it was the most I teared for my entire life. It was very happy & at times very, arghh.......
However, everything has came to an end as you wish. I'm glad that I love you whole-heartedly & I managed to respect your decision (in which I disagree). I do not wish to see you being unhappy or feel insecure. All the best in your future. I will support you if you ever need me.

Happy Valentine's Day..

I'll love you still......